ten years shipping code. five years facilitating healing. two kids. two continents. one thread running through all of it.
i'm a senior engineer who builds servers at 3am and a healer who holds space for people taking themselves apart. catalan roots, london scars, a life reassembled in the jungles of oaxaca.
for a long time i thought these were separate lives. the terminal and the ceremony space. the deploy and the prayer. turns out they were never separate processes. they're the same service, listening on different ports.
the wound of separation runs through everything — from parents, from self, from home, from the work that actually matters. i know because it runs through me. i'm not here because i figured it out. i'm here because i refuse to pretend i have.
feeling is the solution to everything.
the body knows before the mind does.
you can't heal with the bullet still inside.
anything that is not a 100% yes is a no.
shipping imperfect things is spiritual practice.
self-hosting is self-sovereignty.
the world doesn't need more teachers who haven't done the work.
every pattern you break, you break for your lineage — past and future.
doing the emotional work in life — that's where everything actually happens. not on the mat or in ceremony.
simplicity over complexity. always.
all of it was training data.
astral integration is a systems studio and a healing practice. one person, two doors. i build infrastructure for people who create things — websites, automation, self-hosted tools, the stuff that should exist but doesn't as a saas yet. and i hold space for people rebuilding themselves — theta healing, constellations, shadow work, the hard conversations nobody else will have with you.
the server runs in germany. the ceremony space is in mazunte. the code is hand-written. the healing is felt, not performed. everything ships raw — no frameworks where they're not needed, no scripts where presence is required.
this is not a brand. it's a practice. the kind you do every day whether anyone is watching or not.
no hustle culture. no "crushing it."
no guru energy. no pedestals.
no spiritual bypassing. no love-and-light as anesthesia.
no corporate speak. no synergy. no leveraging.
no performing wholeness while falling apart inside.
no hiding the mess. the mess is the material.
posts, tools, and builds. no spam.